yup. that would be me. I really don’t know why i don’t write more often. my inner monologue never stops and I am thinking that perhaps if i wrote something down every once in awhile I could at least give my brain a chance to catch up. generally its a tide i swim against. i stopped writing for many reason. ok.. one main reason with several subsections. they are as follows: fear-1) of being overly emotionally driven….really all you have to do is read a few past blogs to understand that this thought is not an exaggeration,2) being so horribly immature in my understanding of good doctrine…still true, 3) being afraid of making mistakes…i believe its rooted in perfectionism which is entirely sinful self- reliance..yeah i don’t want to admit that my grammar is atrocious and my spelling even more frighting 4) and for good measure lets throw a little works righteousness to complete the list. ..you see i have to make my self look good…at the very least.
yup. that pretty much sums it all up. i reach one conclusion. i am sinful. i think far too highly of myself. i am too proud to admit that i fail.fail.fail. everyday i fail. that pride permeates my soul. then i think of the saving grace God has given me. i dont deserve salvation and yet christ saved me..how beautiful and worthy of praise is God almighty!??
so with this understanding i (the recovering perfectionistic,self-reliant, emotionally driven, works based, immature, bad speller,that I am)
write on
