it would seem that I have placed my pen down for too long..now I am all muddled inside…
a vent a rant an overflow of all these glorious things
a ring a new name my soul sings!!!! oh gloriously humbling thing..that a man should desire me. so pure so true..God we give glory to you!
For you brought us here to this place..I look behind me and scratch my head..How in the world?? And sometimes I believe You’re amused at how easily I forget You are good…and in Control..how quick I am to run to everything but You…and believe everything but what is true ..my sin so clearly displayed..oh the blood of Christ….and the strength to trust is a divine working indeed..
If I got what I planned I be a million miles away in prideful isolation ..reverse humility ..a victim yet again… my turn to be surprised..for when You opened up my eyes you place before me the most patient being …And I threw many tantrums..I find I have a talent for that..to push love away..once a victim always a victim..unless God be glorified in me…
tender he always is..loving ..marvelous and mine… God grant me the grace to treasure him in no small measure
now for the circumstances we find
time not enough…why do dresses cost so blasted much?
invites cakes flowers and all these fretful things…Yet I am having a ball with it all..everytime I see him..it melts clean away
and I worry..where will I live? goodbye room mate..what an odd situation we find ourselves
how will I get to work? (blasted cars and things) time time time time time time
home ..I miss you
And these headaches last for so long…dizzy girl
now standing up and dusting off circumstantial things …
submission to Him
and the coming peace..
NOT One Answer has come…I am still full and fighting the urge to cry..how fast these weeks will fly
but I have him 
and God glorious and mighty constant when I am so flighty
