Squint

It might be because I was wincing from the blow being dealt

I saw it happen        I felt it coming

Like tax season

I am squinting

The whole time I have spent looking in his eyes for my reflection

I saw a cowardly girl…shy…awkward..ugly…talentless..clumsy….she can hardly speak…red faced…always…beet red….shaking….and blind…

I was squinting…I am not positive…but I think her eyes were closed…she didn’t want to see

and I closed my eyes too..it seemed the thing to do…but I lost sight of me…

everyday I walk through their door..I quiver inside….I should buy toothpicks for my eyelids..you know whatever it takes

I don’t want to forget me

I was squinting when they dealt the blow…why I could not know

she stammered or was it gasping?  ‘would you like some bitterness with a side of rebellion?  resentment is the special tonight….

when someone is wrong can we respond correctly? Do I respond correcly…I look to myself for what I did wrong…did I do something wrong (my greatest fear…blast perfection?)

I am squinting again

Only one thing can we do           Forgive and Forget

I look for You

Where are your eyes beauiful lover of mine?

I’ll be silenced when I SEE YOU..Oh Your beautiful eyes….

I want to stay with you

and If I must go then come with me

we can travel in a van inside of our box

I won’t be going outside of it

wolves wait

and I’ve been squinting

cover me up and lock me inside

I want your eyes to be my mirror

be my mirror

My eyes burn a bit when I open them

The light makes them water

But I’d rather see the way you see and have faith for your vision

What is it?

Life Abundant